After living in mostly suburban New York my whole life, I am moving to Misawa, Japan for four years with my husband of three months. He is in the US Air Force, therefore I will be joining him on the air base. So three new things: living in a country that is completely foreign to me; being married and living with my husband for the first time; and living on a military base. I think these new experiences will be worth talking about.
I decided to write a blog mostly for my own sanity, but also for those who are curious about what this sort of life looks like. If you are wondering how someone may adjust to so many changes, join me, because I am wondering the same thing. I’m definitely afraid. Fear of the unknown has always been prevalent in my life. Will I get a job? Will Dan and I get along? Will I make friends? Will I have the courage to be independent, or will Dan’s life become my only life? Will I be overwhelmingly homesick? Will I even like Japan? Ultimately, I am afraid of not being ok.
It isn’t easy to leave a life full of people you love, especially when it feels like it has taken such a long time to acquire it. And it’s so much easier to stay where you have become familiar with. It’s comfortable. But why remain in a comfortable setting when you are given the opportunity to be uncomfortable with new experiences? This is easier said than done, of course. I am just trying this new thing called optimism.
Although I have had a lot of fear in the days leading to my departure, at the moment I feel calm and at peace. Things will unfold one day at a time. I expect that my feelings will fluctuate, but with the support of my husband, friends, family, and the universe, I actually believe everything will be ok. I will be ok.